I thought I would stumble reading the love scene that I opened with. The scene is paramount to the story and the two characters relationship. But not a stumble, did I have. Thank you, Lord Ganesh. The words flowed and my vision caught each word. My tone was right on cue for each important phrase, “they climaxed together and it took them both off guard”. I felt quite proud of myself and could say to myself, ‘you did good girl’, not something this highly self-critical person says often enough to herself.
The second reason I felt joyous about the reading was during the last part, the question and answer time. I had reservations about this necessary part of a reading, since the book is based on ‘true events’, I was not so sure what the questions would entail or how my responses would be received. I am grateful for both. I was able to talk about this time with ‘ Hawk’ in a very honest straight forward way that left no doubt, for those listening, to understand that he and our time is and was real. I felt nothing but understanding from them. One listener cried as I tried to answer questions regarding him and me. In the end, I feel that my heartfelt honesty did me well with the small crowd.
This is not a story that comes easily and took some soul searching for me to open up about it. I am pleased and reassured that I did. I am thankful to Hawk for allowing me to have our memories and in being sympathetic that the story wanted to be told in my lifetime at this moment.
I know that this blog will perplex a lot of you and the only way to understand it fully will be to read my book. I would answer any questions, that you may have, since I cannot do a reading everywhere.